your making a mistake.

your making a mistake...

while you sleep on me

someone's gonna snatch me up

while you front on me

im gonna be heading to the top..

i cant believe you would think that bout me?

not trustworthy?

im doing me?

you really dont know me at all

& that hurts so bad.

why do i care so much..

you obviously dont know too much.

& its sad.

its so sad.

but what can i do?

im not gonna beg or convince you.

you either realize,

or you dont.

simple.

me.

i can only be me.

me.

me.

stick up for me.

me.

me.

care for me,

love me,

im all i got.

all i got is my word,

my bond.

lie?

why lie?

my feelings and my actions are 100% genuine.

if you cant see that?

then i feel very sorry for your life w/o me....

do you ever?

this song has touched my heart for the night.
& cut me deep.
'do you ever'-@tynishakeli

"no i dont believe in love anymore.
I know now it aint real.
cuz i've heard people say no matter what true love conquers all..
&& it hurts so bad
no i dont believe in love anymore.
you said you'd always be here
& now you're gone away && i can't heal this pain in my heart.
& it hurts so bad
i need to know

do you ever think of me? ever think of me?
ever since we said its over.
are you ever missing me? ever missing me?
baby did you even love me?

dont even know why i wait up anymore.
theres noone coming back here
i miss you more each day && i cant even give you a call
&& it hurts so bad
where did we go
i dont pray of waking up anymore

i wish my dreams would stay
its the only world where im in your heart
& it hurts so bad.
i need to know...
do you ever think of me?

give it a listen; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TKhpHNbGmRw&feature=related

you can find me in the A.

i finally moved to Atlantaaaaa !

i looove it so far.

these are my roommates, chasitie & shana, we're missing one more, ariel.

♥

amazing.

this is joelle james.

she's a student at berklee college of music.

she is amazing.

subscribe to her on youtube. (:

a different me.

a me who needed a new..

a me who wanted out..

a me that neglected so many parts of me..

a me who took matters into my own hands..

despite what my peers may think or have to say about my decision..

i was my decision.

im growing my hair out naturally.

for me..

& for you i breathe....

...the time is winding down for me to move to atlanta and pursue my dreams.

i can only imagine what awaits me...

music is what i eat, sleep, & breathe && i couldnt imagine myself doing

anything else with my life.

i will speak my life and my thoughts through every stroke of my pen,

every word that i sing & every breath that i take.

i cannot wait to start my new life...

may God grant me many blessings && achievements. :)

one love.

.....my knees get weak when your around.

you & only you.

i'll always choose you.

you've been there for me through

the hardships

the heartaches

heartbreaks

the happy times

the everything.

nobody understands me but you.

you know EXACTLY what to say...

everytime.

you've shown me that you love me.

i can do nothing but love you back.

for the rest of my life i wanna be with you.

my love.

my first love.

my one love.

the only one that will never hurt me.

cure my sadness.

make me happy.

my love.

my first love.

one love.

MUSIC.

MUSIC.

MUSIC.

down ass bitch.

......when the groupie love is over

it'd be me you'll fall for.

...me you'd bang for,

you aint never gotta worry cuz

through thick or thin

im your down ass bitch

your down ass bitch &&

...you && only you can

get this...

-'Down Ass Bitch'

-Cupid Williams Ft. Alexa Bailey

..coming soon...

#operationbirthdayweek --> SUCCESS.

my birthday week was hands down the best one yet.

my friends did the unthinkable for me.

i appreciate all of you soo much.

ily.

i'll miss you.

offical birthday song.

Usher ft. will.i.am

'Omg'

Raymond vs. Raymond

this song had me goin my entire birthday week :)

[4/11-4/18.)

subscribeeee !

gettin my youtube togetherrrrr so

SUBSCRIBE BEYYOOTCHHH !!!

http://www.youtube.com/user/alexaabee?feature=mhw4

.....grocery bag.

'&& i got 'er nigga...grocery bag'

haha

thats stuck in my head.

so my weekend has been EXHAUSTING.

friday was freshman ball....

saturday i was turnt like shit starting

at 12 pm.

ALL DAY until like 1 something today.

smdh.

my stomach hurts baaaad. lol

#itbelikethatsometimes.

question existing....

"what do you do when yer

heart hurts so bad &

yer tired of this artificial

happiness your

attempting everyday?"

answer:

"you let go and let God

give you your happiness."

thanks tyrone. ily. :)

one more thing...lmfao.

hahahaha so IM at COLLEGE.

making SOMETHING outta my life

&& yer at HOME being MONKEY JOE...at

M O N K E Y J O E S !!!

l m f a o.

#killyourself.

......why the fck would i even THINK abt wanting you?

all i can do is laugh at my dumbass.

hahahahaha

&& thats fine.

yall be IN LOVE together working at monkey joes forever.

haha thats fine. smdh.

&& get a real job at least upgrade to chuck e cheese.

at least people know what the fuck that is !

haha monkey joes,....get the fck outta here lmfaoooo !

..it could all be so simple.

i don't need high heels
....For a good feel
you can keep the fancy clothes...
I'll take walkin in the rain
over things material..
I'll trade Melrose and the big names
Give me faces that I know
Just play a melody that everybody knows

Take it down, down, down
And strip it to the core
I don't really need much less is more, more, more

True to life, true to me
The way it's got to be
So simple, so simple, so simple
Live to love, love to be
Absolutely free...

so simple

so simple

so simple.....yea :)

-stacie orrico

to hear it from another....

so i just had a conversation with my good friend.

we'll call her.....diana ross :)

she opened my eyes very WIDELY.

if he could just move on && LEAVE me so quickly,

who's to say he wouldnt do it AGAIN if we got back together.

cuz he CLEARLY would be hurting JAMIE's ass if he dropped her as

soon as i got back.

he's a jerk.

point blank period

....&& i just need to dead that shit.

no more sad b.s.

so more sulking b.s.

from now on its all abt independence.

im a woman.

a woman who deserves the WORLD,

&& if ONE sorry nigga dont wanna give it to me

then a MAN will.

no more crying.

no more wishing.

no more waiting.

its over.

this is the end.

she said to BE single.

enjoy it.

it'll be good for me.....

so ima do just that.

ima be SINGLE.

ima do ME.

ima find myself. & im not gonna officially DATE anyone

for a WHILE.

i need time for myself.

IM whats important right now.

so i hope i get into berklee on the 31 && if i dont

then HELLO ATLANTA. either way, im BLOWIN the popsicle stick on VA && NC.

so new life. new me. NOONE knows me. && thats whats gonna be the best....

i wish...

i wish i could run away.

i wish i could travel.

i wish i could be in love.

i wish i could sing all day.

i wish i could meet Trey Songz.

i wish i could meet someone as real as me.

i wish i could go do my music right now.

i wish i could work with Keri Hilson right now.

i wish i could work up the nerve to make HIM see me.

i wish i could work up the nerve to let HIM go for sure.

i wish i could lay on the beach.

i wish i were in california.

i wish i were in nyc.

i wish i were in miami.

i wish i were in atlanta.

i wish i were in las vegas.

i wish i were a dolphin.

i wish i had a horse.

i wish......that all my wishes could come true.

imy.

mommy. i miss youuuuu. :)

sometimes we dont notice the obvious.

yer standing right in front of me.

you've been standing there for a while.

what am i supposed to do with you

if im not over him.

is it fair to you.?

my trust meter? shot.

...i dont wanna hurt you.

mars vs. venus

me. ; in it to win it.

you. ; in it to win it.

--10 months later.--

me. ; in it to win it.

you. ; in it with someone else.

result. ; me...broken

you...careless.

---------------------------------------

days do not go by w/o me thinking about what we had.

how you fucked up,

how i fucked up.

how you hurt me,

how i hurt you.

&& i hate myself daily . b/c i allow myself to hurt.

i hurt b/c of you. && you have no idea.

i try to compare them all to you, && in the end

they dont live up to my expectations leaving me alone, again.

i try to keep busy just so i dont think about it.

i try to LOOK for what i should just stumble across.

b/c of you can i believe in love. can i?

did you love me?

some questioned if we really were in love...

4 months.

can you put a time limit on love.?

was is lust.?

we werent having sex.

so was it love?

is it love that im feeling?

im confused, bewildered, my guard is up.

i feel like ....like...idk what i feel like.

like the word VOID is tattooed

across my heart.

when will i stumble across someone.

if you wanted to resume what we had why would i let you?

why would i be so stupid to allow you to come back

when ever you feel like it. when its convenient for you..

why should i do that to myself.?

i already feel stupid enough.

when will i ever understand.

when will you ever understand.

....mars vs. venus.

real eyes recognize real lies.

how hard is it to tell the truth.

i do not understand why

people misuse the term 'REAL'.

either be it, or dont.

speak it, or choke.

serve or be c h o p p e d.

...&&at the end of the day it is what it is.

i will ALWAYS be real.

until the death of me.

is boo-boo the fool written on my forehead.?

NEGRO SLAVESS.....

shitttttt..

witcho cryin asss !!!

(inside joke...nvm)

anyway..

so basically i dont feel like elaborating on whats

goin on, soooo ill prob do it tomorrow.

but for the most part

i cannot

deal with

the

incompetent.

you lie. therefore you are a liar.

females...messy as they wanna be.

its fine. i peeped ya game.

wish i woulda figured out sooner.

...should read btwn the lines.

got outta dodge.

silly me.

now im dealin wit ya dumbass for no apparent reason.

waste of my damn time.

ughhhh

witchoooo cryin ass !!!

*RIP Carol's Dog*

-lmaooo

*side-eye*

okayy soooooo friendships have been on a rollercoaster ride the last few weeks.

i have NEVER

had to

deal

with the amount

of drama

that has presented itself

to me in these past few weeks.

who's real.

what's real.

lies.deceit.fake.fraud.gilded.scrutiny...etc.

its becoming a snowball effect & im bout

to chop that sucka in HALF.

i aint got the time for it. so imma sit back relax, & make shit happen.

aint got the time to be side-eyeing peeps that are suppose to be my friends

#aintgotthetimeforit.

im as real as it gets. you aint gonna find me in NO mess.

no enemies. no fights.

i aint got the time for it.

but just remember this ONE thing ;

k a r m a is a b i t c h.

that is all. :)

so you wanna join my team...

eenie meenie myniee moe.

catch a tiger by his toe.

eenie meenie myniee moe.

my mama told me to pick

the very best one && you

are not IT.

with a dirty, dirty dish rag

on your stinky toe.

haha.

so i wonder who i'll land on..

who's NOT it.

who IS it.

will it last?

..or will it end up like the rest..

we will see....

once upon a time.

there once was a girl who loved a boy.

that boy told her he loved her first,

& in the end was the first to let her go.

if he loved her, how could he leave her for another?

was that love?

is it love?

do we both still love?

idk if i could ever get over the hurt.

that YOU caused .

daddy's home.

wow... so its been over a MONTH since i've blogged.

i cannot honestly give a good reason why.

#kanyeshrug

learned alot..

found out alot..

&& reevaluated alot..

& ultimately...

i GREW UP alot...

i'll be famous. promise . :)

download my new songg Ooo Aaah :)

zSHARE - Alexa Ooo aaahh final.mp3

life lessons.

today i had a small talk with shakir.

got me thinkin bout my past && the things i used to do.
...what was i thinking?
young.
dumb.
naive.

my 9th and 10th grade years...ehh...guess you can say i was ...ahh...looking
for something.

whatever that something was?....i realized couldnt be found.

i now, a freshman in college, look back at my high school years..
...im not proud of somethings that happened but i
use those experiences to better myself for my future.

i now know i can not LOOK, i have to be FOUND.
......im waitinggg.

#BIWO !

sooooo.

the topic on theee brain is this ::

"how come the niggas here need to have sex with

a M U L T I T U D E of females, when they can have

O N E female and have sex with her M U L T I P L E

times?"

...food for thoughhht.

lets play catch up.

soooooo damn i havent

written in a minuteeeee.

sah-wee :)

let me bring youu up to speed with meeee.

backk at wack ass H AM P T O N.

sigh.

its actuallyyy not that bad, yet.

waitttt scratch that...

we aint got NO HOT WATER

..POWER BE GOIN OUT EVERY OTHER DAY.

CABLE BE OUT..like right now. wtf.

ELEVATOR DONT WORK.

OVERHEAD LIGHT IN MY DORM ROOM DONT WORK.

CAFE FOOD STILL NASTY AS HELL.

....theres much more but w/e yall get the extent of this

shit bag i live in. smh.

besides all that......

my schedule is P E R F E C T. :)

studio time is going GREATTTT ! :)

been partyinggg like crazyyyy. lol

....all i need is a valentine now...?

dear love.

dear love,

im writing you this letter.

to tell you how i feel,

&& why we're not together...

..we've gon awry

&& i cry...

almost every night.

i'm sorry i changed

i'm sorry i pushed you away.

dear love,

i hope i can forgive you,

for telling me your love

was something i wasnt used to

but it was.

it was the same,

as everyone i hate....

marylanddd bishhh.

so im up hurrrrr visiting the mom dukes.

its COLD AS H E L L.

#nobueno.

went to go see Armored today

at the Magic Johnson theater in PG county.

columbus short is HOTTTT :)

we ate at Bugaboo Creek Steakhouse....thats a funny name.

haha.

well im bored.

...obviously.

in the eye of the beholder.

you make me feel so different.

&& its weird because i havent seen you in 3 weeks.

...havent touched you.

...havent held you.

...havent seen you laugh.

...havent seen you frown.

&& its totally weird.

we talk EVERYDAY.

...just like we promised. :)

i guess i can say yer growing

into my little infatuation. lol

when i'm all alone, surrounded with my own thoughts

i think ;

"You dont need the heart breaks or all the pain, you dont deserve the crying and all those bad things. your heart deserves to be taken care of by a pair of loving hands, so leave that BOY alone, since he hurt you, and go find a real man."

..&& call me crazy , but im starting to want that to be youu.

please dont hurt me.

please dont lie.

please be there for me.

please dont make me cry.

i swore i'd never let another,

capture my heart.

but if i take a chance on you,

please dont leave me alone

in the dark.

xoxo.

-my.jersey.boy.-

my jersey boy

i miss youu !

duck.duck.drunkk.

soooo i just got homee from a house partyyy,

&& of course im not regularrrrly properrrly functioningggg.

i feel like snogginggg..

i wondr if yer wondr ing hwat that meanss? haha. look it up dummyy.

anywooo.

i have a new friend!

i'll call him....hmmm..

'jack rabbitt'

he's veryyy sweet. && i enjoyed how he opend up to me today

we'll be such good friends. yay.

haha.

it was new years day yestrday & now its 2010. wow.

#in2010 its OVER betwn me && HIM .

i refuse to let him fill my mind btcuz iat this point its a lil

ridiculous ya know? like why am i hanging on to absolutely n o t h i n g good

for me in the long run.

there perfect for each other

&& i need someone BETTER

REALER

&& who loves me forreal.

i promise myself.

no more tears. no more time wasted on thoughts of him.

i promise. i promieseeee.

:)