mars vs. venus

me. ; in it to win it.

you. ; in it to win it.

--10 months later.--

me. ; in it to win it.

you. ; in it with someone else.

result. ; me...broken

you...careless.

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days do not go by w/o me thinking about what we had.

how you fucked up,

how i fucked up.

how you hurt me,

how i hurt you.

&& i hate myself daily . b/c i allow myself to hurt.

i hurt b/c of you. && you have no idea.

i try to compare them all to you, && in the end

they dont live up to my expectations leaving me alone, again.

i try to keep busy just so i dont think about it.

i try to LOOK for what i should just stumble across.

b/c of you can i believe in love. can i?

did you love me?

some questioned if we really were in love...

4 months.

can you put a time limit on love.?

was is lust.?

we werent having sex.

so was it love?

is it love that im feeling?

im confused, bewildered, my guard is up.

i feel like ....like...idk what i feel like.

like the word VOID is tattooed

across my heart.

when will i stumble across someone.

if you wanted to resume what we had why would i let you?

why would i be so stupid to allow you to come back

when ever you feel like it. when its convenient for you..

why should i do that to myself.?

i already feel stupid enough.

when will i ever understand.

when will you ever understand.

....mars vs. venus.