so cold.

...now my heart
feels
SO COLD..

i may have had
a
nonchalant
demeanor...

but inside
my heart
was
weeping.

breaking up
is SO HARD.
..especially
when he's moved on
already.

...now my heart
feels
SO COLD...

follow the yellow brick road.

...when i hear my text message
ring, "new message from thee.f***.up"
it makes me laugh.
why are you texting me?
it makes me laugh really hard.
&& i look at myself in the mirror
&& i smile.
i am doing perfectly fine without him.

i could really careless about the small
talk, really.
it doesnt excite me.
i dont sit and wonder
...."maybe he wants me back."
hell to the no.
not now.
not ever.
that crap is done-zo.
...i dont even wanna be his
friend.
i feel absolutely nothing.

he says im mean now &&
have no sense of humor.
no doofus.
im mean to YOU.
i will not laugh or smile
or enjoy anything you say.
what for?
WHAT FOR?
we not cool.
we not friends.
we not homies.
im not calling you on yer birthday.
im not wishing you a merry christmas && a happy new year.
i dont care what you do.
i dont care abt yer life.
thats not my concern anymore.
YOU made that decision.
NOT me.
so no good luck's.
no see you later's.
no talk to you later after this convo is done.
cuz i d o n t c a r e.
get on with yer life.
enjoy yer frugal ass snowbunny.
enjoy yer frugal ass life.
you miss me. i can bet money on it.
well....
adios busterrr.

sour amaretto.

sweet
on the
outside.

sour
on the
inside.

backtracking.

when you've moved on to someone knew
why
backtrack?

i ask my self ; why is he infiltrating my mind.
why
backtrack?

i have had many experiences
since he's been out of my life.
,,,so
why
backtrack?

..because what we had was so good.
our circumstances ended our bliss.
you went left.
i went right.

&& now were 3 hours away.

i sit and wonder if we could have made it this far.
it would've have been a year last month.
...10.05.08

a year...wow.

i still miss you
&& i still care about you.

yer my derwin && im yer melanie. :]

home bound.

thanksgiving
break.

3 daysssss !

its amazing ; i cant wait
to see my familyyy
&& my friends

im so excited.

i cant wait to chill with my
'derwin ding-dong davis'

..that should be interesting

buttt the jayheadds will be in effect
&& THAT should be interestingggg !

:]

unknown.

is it possible to have sex with someone you think is totally
H O T T
&& not catch feelings?
as HARD as you may try...
can you really just not care at all.?

i wonderr..

twitter freakkk.

'tweet me babyyyy...'

drunkenn
blogingggg !

so im sitting here
with my ipod on shuffle
on a friday night
thinking bout my life
&& everyone in it.

&& started thinkin bout what i love &&
what i
hate.

who i love
&& i hate.

i love yOU.
&& i hate HIM.

i like youu
&& i hate HIM.

i think im pretty darn cool man.

lollllllll